I met him 21 months ago seems like yesterday or more like I wish it was just yesterday. I met him on a chat room he was from UK and I'm of course from the Philippines ( where the weather is hot but the girls are hotter lol)
When I first met him it was nice, out of everyoneelse he caught my attention cause he was exactly like me funny, sarcastic and mean so the bantering of mean words, sarcasam and trying to outplay eachother was so freakin funny. Then we started chattin on messenger and it's still the bantering and the hi and hello's then I saw myself spending all my spare time with him ( and trust me I have a lot ) reading books used to b something I love doin then it stopped,reading his messages was more interesting than any books , watching him stuck his tongue out and raise his middle finger was more fun.
I found myself waiting for him, wanting to know him and telling him my fears, my problems and he would look at me as if he understands like he cares and I realized for the 1st time that I'm inlove with my bestfriend and he will always tell me that he loves me more than I'll ever know
Then one day he just disappread and I missed so much and googled him found out he was on one site that is all about plumbing and stuff and he was seeking advise because he and his gf purchased a home and he wanna do some DIY stuff and my world crashes he never said he has a gf he even denied havin one and he said he havent had a gf for ages by choice.
One day he went online and I asked him about it he said I dont trust him and I accuse him of alot of things and he's sick of it and that he is done w/ me.
One day he went online again and we finally talked bout it he denied it but at the end he said it's true and he was so afraid to tell me coz he love me and he knows ill leave when I find out
I forgave him and accepted the lies cause I'm not ready to let him go, I needed him he was my confidant and when the world was against me he was there for me
And then one say few weeks ago he said his gf caught him ( his fiancee) and he said he's letting me go cause im ruining his life there and that he is sorry.
The on;y fear I have in my life is being left and he knows it so he once promised no matter what he will never leave he will not be like the people I once loved that had left me. I begged for him to stay but he didnt and now I have no other option but to move on
Moving on starts tomorrow...
